I may not be as active as I thought I would be this year...

In previous posts on this blog, I mentioned some big life changes that I’ve been working through. I’ve had to move, have my job, and work schedule change. While I thought I would be able to adjust quickly, and be up and running now. This unfortunately did not happen.

In light of some personal information about my health, and in recent events (neither of which I want to get into here) I think I need to step back from the internet and focus on myself for some time.

While I’d argue that is the modern internet is not the main reason for current mood and health, I cannot deny that the constant scroll, and chasing that dopamine drip has affected my mental health. I have made the decision that many people have suggested to me, and I will be deleting twitter from my phone as I find I do the most scrolling on that (less so Mastodon and Bluesky, but a whole other topic).

It partly feels irresponsible to disconnect in such an away when the world is in such a state, but I have found that I tend to focus on that with not much I can actually do a lot of the time. Doing so has caused me to spiral into despair as I “doomscrolling”. Perhaps that’s melodramatic, but it is how I feel, and I know this only expediting my fears, and anxieties that are starting to affect my life.

I am also just not as motivated to create stuff as I was just before all this happened. It’s hard to work on things when you’re feeling constant stress, and you’re not getting proper rest because of that stress. This means my projects such as the final rumbleverse video will have to be pushed back and for that I am sorry. When I do feel motivated for videos and the like, I’ll likely start with some shorts and less intensive projects (I still have an out of context video to make for example) to ease me back into it when I have more time.

Not the best for views, but I need create and try and remember I don’t lose anything from a bad performing video. All I know is one of my passions is making content… no videos! Making dumb, but entertaining videos! and I’d hate to see that fade away because I burned myself out or I don’t take the time for me to be okay.

I will still be around for my friends, (hanging around discords, watching their streams) and I’m not going away, going away. Frankly, I think a lot of the friends I’ve made, and few from my past that have reached out have helped me stay somewhat sane for the past few years. You’ve helped me in more ways than you know. And for that I thank you.

I’ll be back, and creating when I can, but as of right now I need to take care of myself. As for my friends, you know how to reach me.

See you later.

A Nemes Content Blog 2022.